Foot Prints!!!

We had Billy's foot prints put in the sidewalk when we built our house in 2005.Boy has he grown!!

"Mothers Day 2009"

Brittany headed into the woods!

Steve taking Brittany for a rid in the Razer!

Look at that sneaking grin!!!

Off they go!

I got my fern's for Mothers day

Get a good look at tham while they are still green!

Sweetest Face Ever!! HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL MOMS!!!!!!

What a day!!!!

Mothers day is a "glorious" day with many mixed emotions. The emotions of loosing my mother almost 3 years ago, and missing her especially on Mothers Day. I wonder as she looks down on me from heaven........ What does she think of me as a mother. It is funny as I go through my everyday routines I can sometimes feel her presents, I can almost hear her telling me " get it together girl , stand your ground and all will be fine". She use to tell me this all the time except for those days that only my mother knew about. The days I just could not get together, the days I just wanted to give up, the days only a mother can make better. I find myself from time to time picking up the phone and dialing her number, just to remember she is not there. Does it get easier????

Another emotion I experienced this mothers day was the pain in my heart for all those mothers that have lost there precious children. Since beginning this journey almost eleven years ago of having a child with a chronic illness, i have met so many mom's with "sick" kids. Through this journey many of these children have received their wings. I have met many moms of kids that have also passed do to accidents and not to forget all of the fallen soldiers that have gave their lives for our country.... My heart aches for "all" these moms.

It makes me reflect on my own life as a mother starting almost 20 years ago. Where would I be today without Chelsea....... my 19 year old that drives me crazy sometimes, but has also become my new best friend. Where would I be without Billy my 10 year old that keeps me on my toes, that's smile lights up the room, that appreciates everything and asks for nothing. My other 10 year old Brittany, even though she has only been with us for a few years , where would I be without her, She keeps me full of life (she never slows down). A day does not and will not go by without me telling my children I love them, even if its after scolding them or grounding them. Life is way to short and none of us are promised tomorrow.........

Our day began with a big breakfast ( yes I cooked, the mom and wife in me wouldn't have it any other way, I am allot like my grandpa, I like no one in my kitchen ). Afterward we played out side for most of the day. Steve, Brittany and some of our friend rode motor cycles and these crazy buggies in the woods behind the house. Billy and I rode the golf cart and watched. The golf cart is as fast as I want to go. I like my behind planted safely on the seat of a slow going vehicle. Steve and the kids took me out to dinner and got me ferns for the front porch. I hope I can manage to keep them alive this year. Over all it was a wonderful day!!!!